family.

I promise you, I’m not going anywhere.

I remember how you made me say those words, out of fear, that our paths would never cross again.

It’s perhaps been years since we last talked proper, and perhaps in time, we may do so again. For now, I will let the silence hold its meaning. You will always be family, a space of familiarity, warmth and joy, regardless of wherever time or tide take us. We both did things beyond ourselves, and perhaps in the naivety of youth, rationalized our way through them. There are times where I wish I could take back everything, yet there are also times where I am grateful for the frayed pieces where I would not change a thing. I’d like to think we learned a lot from one another and the spaces we shared that overlapped like the tide against the edge of the sea. I’d like to think we owe it to one another, to live our lives to the fullest we can, in joy, and in distance, knowing that the best is always yet to come.

You reminded me of home, and the places I once inhabited. The pieces of familiarity that breathed a genuine love and affection for connection, and courage perhaps to put myself first, for the first time in a long time, even if it came at a communal cost. We both inhabit different spaces now, and as time continues to grow, may the great divide continue to shift and widen, to perhaps a point where we fully become strangers again. May we learn to let go quietly of the things we hold within ourselves and may we learn to step outside our discomfort for one another now, in order to step into the new and uncharted as the universe has called us to beyond.

Our circles, with intentionality, rarely collide now, and I think perhaps, is a small victory; a boundary from afar, where we can both continue to love and hold gratitude for one another in equal measure. I truly am happy for you in every sense of the word, and I hope you are too of how you are becoming. I hope you learn to love yourself as much as you love the world, and I hope you have learnt to forgive yourself as much as I have learnt to do the same of me. You were always so hard on yourself. I pray you will continue to seek vulnerability in safety and courage of a love that will last you a lifetime, and I will continue to send you my warmth from away.