the slow charge.

There is something perpetually frustrating about the slow charge; the last 20% that takes twice as long as the first 80% to charge. Perhaps its because I’ve always disconnected myself mid-charge, that I find myself struggling to make heads or tails of the remaining charge time. Waiting can be incredibly frustrating for those used to doing and I am aware that in many instances, it reflects a deep nature within us to want to constantly be in control, or to sit in a position of security where we know exactly where we are going, and how we’d like to get there.

But here’s the thing, waiting and trusting the slow charge, sometimes makes all the difference between how much we can endure and challenge in order to overcome. Sitting still when we are called by society to be constantly achieving or reaping pursuit after pursuit, is something incredibly difficult to unlearn. I know not everyone is in a space to do so, and I am grateful for the opportunity to embrace my slow charge amidst unemployment and a lack of job security.

I’ve learnt to trust that the right things will come at the right time, and that the greater the time spent between seed-plant and harvest, the greater the fruit that is to come. Our resilience isn’t so much defined by how much we can strive to overcome or challenge the slow charge, but by how much we have the courage to show up within it; a decision to be consistent and intentional, without direction or clarity, to find purpose and meaning in the waiting. Perseverance and patience are all but essential in the long-term, in so much for me, a reminder to myself that His timing is everything, and that I have no control over it.

Sometimes our desire to pursue instant self-gratification is so deeply ingrained within our culture, that the courage to sit and wait out the waiting leaves many of us resentful. In so doing, the waiting becomes less about waiting as it becomes the preparation of the heart, and the quiet challenging of things within us; the things, perhaps that have kept us from seeking and undertaking our full potential. We will never truly be ready for everything that will come our way, nor can we ever anticipate how and where our chips may fall, but the slow charge is about giving ourselves space to get as far as we need to, in order to run the distance that we have each purposed ourselves to run.